‘It’s been very dark for all of us’: film-maker Alexandra Pelosi on a family on America’s political frontline

Alexandra Pelosi is at home in New York, preparing a birthday party for her 15-year-old son, and pops up on Zoom beside a sign that says: "Don't work for assholes. Don't work with assholes." When our interview begins with the most unimaginative of queries - "How are you?" - she is in no mood for casual conversation.

"How am I supposed to answer that question?" the fast-talking film-maker bats back. "Look, I don't know how you do polite small talk because I've just been through basically like both of my parents' funerals."

To be clear, neither of Alexandra's parents is dead. Her father Paul Pelosi, 82, is undergoing a slow and painful recovery from a hammer attack in late October by a home intruder. Her mother Nancy Pelosi, also 82, last month announced her retirement as Democratic leader in the House of Representatives, assured of a place in history as the first female speaker.

Alexandra, 52, recalls that, when her father emerged from intensive care, his house looked like a funeral home because so many well-wishers sent flowers. "I was reading the notes from his friends and I was like, this is great, 'cos you get to go to your own funeral, 'cos you get to see what people say about you when you die. I'm putting a good spin on it, trying to cheer him up."

Then she went to Washington for her mother's long goodbye. "If you're in politics and you step down, it's like going to your own funeral because you get to read your own obituary. Essentially it's like I've read both of my parents' obituaries and now I have to keep living with two living people. That's surreal."

The pitiless assault on Paul Pelosi was one of the most disturbing examples yet of America's increasingly coarse, polarised and violent political culture. He has told how he was sleeping when a man he had never seen before entered his bedroom looking for Nancy, who was in Washington at the time.

Officers responding to Paul's 911 call found him and David DePape, 42, fighting over a hammer, according to a federal indictment. An officer ordered DePape to drop the hammer but he responded, "ummm nope," before forcefully swinging it at Paul, who was treated at a hospital for a fractured skull.

DePape last month pleaded not guilty to federal charges of attempting to kidnap a federal official and assaulting a federal official's family member. Paul, wearing a hat and glove on one hand, made his first public appearance since the assault at the recent Kennedy Center Honors in Washington.

"Wasn't that amazing?" asks Alexandra, who has been struggling to sleep and has had nightmares about the incident. "Come on, you can't be a bitter old journalist! I think every member of our family cried when they saw that because that's the first time he left the house. That was a nice 10 seconds of his life but he has to live with traumatic brain injury for the rest of his life and he's 82. If it could've been me, I would have loved to have been in his place."

She reflects: "It's been very dark for all of us. We all process it differently. I've been very dark because the minute it happened I got on a plane with my mom and went to San Francisco. We sat in the ICU for a week and I was very upset because my mother loves to tell the story that, when I was 16, she came to me and said, 'Mommy has the chance to run for Congress and I will only do it if you give me your permission but I'd have to be gone three nights a week.' I was like, 'Mom, get a life!'

"She loves that story and so then we were sitting in the ICU 35 years later and I was like, 'If I had known that this is where it was going to end, I never would have given you my blessing that day 35 years ago.' But my dad was like, you can't say that because it's not fair to erase her career just because of this; you have to say, if you came to me today, I would not give you my permission because of how toxic the social media environment is."

Alexandra's son, Paul, is named after her father and worships him. He was with her at the US Capitol when it came under attack from a mob of Donald Trump supporters on 6 January 2021. "He was asking me that day, 'Mom, why do all these people want to kill MiMi?' I couldn't come up with an answer. Because of the Affordable Care Act? I don't know.

"I know that if you watch Fox News, you hate Nancy Pelosi because they've programmed you to hate Nancy Pelosi and, if I watched Fox News, I would hate Nancy Pelosi too. But I don't know how it gets from that to, 'I want to break into her house and try and kill someone in her family.' That's a leap and so it's been a lot for my teenagers to try and process that."

The Virginia governor, Glenn Youngkin, and Arizona gubernatorial candidate Kari Lake made fun of it while Trump's son, Don Jr. retweeted a "Paul Pelosi Halloween costume" featuring a hammer.

Alexandra, who had to clean up the mess and has photos of her father's bloody pyjamas on her phone, comments: "I can't see how the governor of Virginia can make jokes about it or the wannabe governor of Arizona can make jokes about it and then how elected members of Congress can tweet these insane Pizzagate-style conspiracies. That's unforgivable. That's who I'll never forgive. I'm trying to make peace with that."

Alexandra admits: "She never gave me permission. She has not signed a release. She has not seen the film. She does not know what this is. I don't know if she's ever going to watch it."

Indeed, Alexandra could never get her mother to sit down for an in-depth interview. "This is watching her work because Nancy Pelosi is her job. The only way to understand her is to watch her work so the only way I could explain her is watching her work. But if I tried to talk to her or ask a question, it just wouldn't work. She just didn't play ball with me. That's not what she does. "

The documentary sometimes revels in the quotidian but, when it arrives at January 6, moves to a different plane. Watching on TV as Trump delivers an incendiary speech urging his supporters to "fight like hell" to overturn his election defeat, Nancy vows to "punch him out" if he sets foot in the US Capitol, her sacred ground.

Alexandra recalls: "She was protecting her turf. It was the House of Pelosi and they broke into her house and tried to kill all of her family members because the caucus is her family. Nancy Pelosi has two families. She has us, her children and grandchildren, then she has her political family, the members, the caucus."

Whipped up into a frenzy, the mob marched on the Capitol. Alexandra's husband, the Dutch TV journalist Michiel Vos, was outside reporting the drama; she and her teenage son were inside, watching with alarm. "I was looking out the window: 'Oh, look at those protesters out there.' I'm trying to get her [Nancy's] attention because she's very laser-focused. Then my son kept saying like, 'What if they stormed the Capitol?'

"At some point the security came over and said we're leaving. They [the mob] had already broken the window to come in. The security camera shows that the protesters were two minutes from us but we found out that after. At the time we did not know how close they came so it wasn't as scary as it seemed."

Nor did the threat come as a complete surprise. "The Republicans have spent hundreds of millions of dollars demonising her and turning her into a target. The Capitol police have protected her for decades. There was a pig's head on her doorstep in San Francisco a few days before that attack. It's not as if this all came completely out of the blue."

Alexandra accompanied her mother into the back of SUV that sped them away to safety. The speaker, full of cold fury, and other congressional leaders gathered at a military base, working the phones to demand that order be restored so they could certify Joe Biden's election victory.

Alexandra melted into the background and filmed for posterity. Some of the footage made its way into the House's January 6 committee hearings. "It's like a soccer player. What do you do when you put a ball in front of me? I'm going to kick it. I knew my job was to kick the ball."

The rioters, meanwhile, had overrun the Capitol and were ransacking the speaker's office. Among the most haunting footage from that day is the sound of one demanding, "Where's Nancy?" Subsequently Stewart Rhodes, founder of the far-right Oath Keepers, reportedly said he wanted to hang Nancy "from the lamp-post".

Alexandra reflects: "Stewart Rhodes was prosecuted so my son comes down for breakfast the other day and he's like, 'Hey, did you see that this guy was found guilty? He said he wanted to hang Nancy Pelosi from a lamp-post. Why did he want to hang Nancy Pelosi from a lamp-post?' I don't know. I still haven't been able to come up with a good answer for Nancy Pelosi's grandchildren about why people want to hang her from a lamp-post."

Such unanswerables underline that it has been a bruising couple of months. But a trip to Washington boosted Alexandra's spirits. First, she was reunited with her "old friend" former president George W Bush - a relationship that bemuses her liberal friends. "It's renewing my faith in humanity because I know there's hope that the Republican party does have a life after Donald Trump and then I can live in America and we can all live happily ever after."

Then she attended a state dinner at the White House, sitting across from Biden and next to the guest of honour, the French president, Emmanuel Macron. "Let's face it, I'm the least interesting person at the table so it's my job to entertain them." She began with a mother-in-law joke for Macron's benefit: "When I met my husband's mom, the first thing she said to me was, 'Why can't you be French?'"

Now, in another welcome diversion from her parents' "funerals", she has to get ready for her younger son's birthday party and so ends the interview with a final plea. "Be nice," she says mischievously. "Haven't the Pelosis suffered enough? I don't want to retraumatise my family when they read the Guardian. That's all."