Phillies reliever calls his crushing season-ending error a 'horses--- throw'

Kerkering, 24, was pitching in a 1-1 game in the bottom of the 11th inning. The bases were loaded and there were two outs. 

The Phillies' reliever could have gathered himself and thrown to first base to record the final out of the inning but instead threw to home. 

Kerkering said the pressure got to him. 

"Just hit off my foot, once that pressure got to me, (I) just thought it was a faster throw to J.T., a little quicker throw than trying to cross body it to Bryce (Harper at first base)," Kerkering told reporters after the game.

"Just a horses--- throw."

Kerkering said he was in the moment and didn't hear his teammates telling him to go to first base. The Huntington Beach, California, native said his teammates encouraged him after the game. 

"Just keep your head up," Kerkering said. "It's an honest mistake. It's baseball. S--- happens. Just keep your head up, you'll be good for a long time to come. It's not my fault. (We) had opportunities to score. Just keep your head up.

"Means a lot. It shows they care a lot. It just means everything, for sure," he added. "This really f---ing sucks right now, but hopefully keep pushing and get over this hump."

Kerkering had a strong season for the Phillies this year. In 69 games, he had an 8-4 record with a 3.30 ERA and four saves.

The NLCS will begin Monday.